nails have been painted again, she's happy.

{ Yes, that is a true statement. 
My nails have been painted again, and she is happy. 
She means me..... okay people. }

I can truly, genuinely say that I am so happy. Sometimes life catches me by surprise and I stop and say a prayer to my Jesus about how thankful I am.
It takes my breath away when I think of how good my God is.
compared to where my life was 6 years ago,

Seriously my soul is happy.

One of my tattoos says " Blessed by His faithful love."
I look at that tattoo occasionally and really can't believe how true that actually is. Everyday I am blown away by God's faithful love and how much He specifically loves ME.
I have gone through terrible tragedy, immense heart break, depression, eating disorders and more, but also a life full of JOY to the greatest extent.
Through it all, God's love has been faithful.
He is always faithful, but I was not always seeing it.

My husband and I recently shared our testimonies at our youth group and I started mine by saying "Through all of these stories, I want you to see the goodness of God. His glory and His faithfulness through it all because it was there, even when I didn't see it at the time."
I shared deep, dark parts of my past.
I shared joyful times of my present.
I shared dreams of my future.
All in all, I shared how God has been faithful to love me and take care of me.

Just like He does SPECIFICALLY FOR YOU.
He longs to spend time with us, to be with us. But the choice is up to us, not up to Him. He let us decide whether we need Him in our lives or not, and let me tell you it is so much more ABUNDANT and fulfilling to have Him be apart of your life everyday, every waking moment.

I have just been in awe of my God. His beauty,
His timing,
His uniqueness and
His intimacy with me.
I can't describe it, it is so wonderful.
But one thing I wanted to share is that everyone can have it!
"Seek first the Kingdom of God...."
Most people who have been in church have heard this scripture before.
But seriously, SEEK HIS KINGDOM FIRST and all else will be added to you.
Ask Him where to go. Ask Him what you can do to live out your potential.
Let me tell you how I am learning that......

----> recently we moved. AGAIN. yes again.
We now live in the most lovely, relaxing place; San Diego California.
Yes lovely, because of the people, the beach, the vibe, the sunshine and the food.
I seriously look at my husband and say " HOW IS THIS OUR LIFE."
It is what I have always dreamed about!

But GOD PUT US HERE. I wasn't ready to move from Fullerton, CA to San Diego. We have moved 5 times in the last year, and I was loving the people and the church that we were apart of in Fullerton.
But after MUCH FASTING and MUCH PRAYER and SO MUCH PEACE and UNITY in both of our hearts, we moved to San Diego.

And can I tell you, God has truly given us desires of our hearts.
We have been building community.
We are now in charge of a beautifully crafted Youth Group.
We have a home, to call a home.
We have mentors, friends and family.
We have a deep, connection with one another.
We laugh a lot.
I paint my nails, often.
We drive with the windows down.
We seek Jesus everyday.
And to think I didn't think we were supposed to move?
Look how God knew everything ahead of time. All I needed to do was OBEY.

Today I read a post from the sweetness of girl and her beautiful heart about seeking Jesus and His presence EVERY MORNING.
(Thank you Faith Benton)
It was exactly how I felt. If I don't seek God and His kingdom every morning, my whole day is thrown off. If I don't have eternity in mind, and ask God to use me everyday....my mind is thrown off.
Ever since my husband and I have been married, we want to live and love like Jesus.
However that looks like.
Well,
He moved us to San Diego to live with and love on this community.
When you are walking in God's will, and obeying what He has asked of you, EVERYTHING FALLS INTO PLACE.
IT is the most wonderful thing.

Just wanted to update those of you who haven't heard, or wanted to know more detail. We are happy, healthy and THRIVING. We are growing with a new position at a church, building community and learning everyday.
Please continue to pray for our transition down here, and for our hearts to be on His Kingdom. To live and love like Jesus in ALL that we do.

xoxo